Sick Sick Sick

Well, twas the season to NOT be Merry but rather be sorry cos most of us are falling sick. With extreme heat and rain out of a sudden, most of us are left with sniffling noses and phlegmie throats... I was down with fever on my birthday and after a week, I am still recovering from that ordeal... And to top it off, my internet connections have been at it's worst and I have to quickly blog before the line dies again! (Fingers crossed)

Anyhow, as the month draws to a close, somewhere called Actor's Studio in Bangsar Shopping Centre is drawing it's curtain as well... Yes, after 8 years since they shifted from their previous premise at Dataran Merdeka, they are now closing down... for good. It is pretty sad since i first performed with the Young KL Singers there and now they are gone! But fret not as the old will go and the new, is assured to come!

A new premise is being built as we speak and the secret location will be announced soon.

As Actor's Studio closes, we the Young KL Singers are also taking the opportunity to perform for the Closing Gala where we will be singing a few song's from our previous productions like Music Brings Us Together and Kenangan Lagenda as well as our very own, Walk With Me, We are also singing from the musical, A Corus Line, What I Did For Love.

Here is to Actor's Studio, We Love You, We Miss You!

What I Did For Love - Mary J. Blige

Kiss today goodbye,
The sweetness and the sorrow.
Wish me luck, the same to you.
But I can't regret
What I did for love, what I did for love.

Look my eyes are dry.
The gift was ours to borrow.
It's as if we always knew,
And I won't forget what I did for love,
What I did for love.

Gone,
Love is never gone.
As we travel on,
Love's what we'll remember.

Kiss today goodbye,
And point me t'ward tomorrow.
We did what we had to do.
Won't forget, can't regret
What I did for
Love
What I did for
Love

What I did for...
Love
Love is never gone
As we travel one
Love's what we'll remember

Kiss today goodbye.
And point me t'ward tomorrow.(Point me t'ward tomorrow)
We did what we had to do.
Won't forget, can't regret
What I did for love.
What I did for love.

My date with my 8 Valentines...

Ahhh... Every year, Valentine's day comes very much as just another day in February, with no special plans and just one of those days where I felt that would not make a difference anyway. Hence, when Sam told me that he would love to have dinner with me and Ant, I agreed reluctantly as I cancelled my evening plans of going to church. Hence, after my afternoon at church I drove to Mid Valley since Sam told me that he was there since 1 or so...

Just Dinner right?

To my surprise, the day was relatively smooth in terms of parking as there was no delay in getting a parking lot as compared to the day before. (I had to be there for a birthday party at night at GSC Signature and my earlier half, just gossiping with Lady Gaga aka AJ and Sam.Drifting a lil, I was actually reluctant to come at first as I was not up to 3 guys having dinner during Valentines but I know I can't disappoint Sam so I appeared and we strolled around Mid Valley, me being as blur as always, followed him around as he told me Ant was with his mum in Mid Valley and needs to help her out with some shopping... Then Sam got a call...

Sam: What? They gave our table away???

No dinner???

And so I thought Tony Roma's was pissed at the fact that we are a threesome and not some couple who would splurge a lot that night. So I thought to myself, "Great... now what?" We ended up at Chilis and what was set before me was such a shocker... A long line of people trying to get in and I was asked to stand in line while Sam went to find Ant... A couple of minutes later, Sam told me to go in and there they were, AJ, Froggie and Dan in their stripped shirts... Then it dawned upon me, this was a surprise birthday party. I thought, "Damn... was it my previous post who sparked this like for real?" (Though Sam has expressed that he was gonna do a get together cum birthday party on the 21st)

I was speechless... I was glad that later Bong and Joshie came as well... And before long, Ant joined us... All night long, we chatted and laughed so much. It was like we have known each other for ages though Froggie was a lil under the weather and didn't contribute much but his mere presence there was enough to reaffirm me how sweet of him to leap all the way to KL from Seremban.
Froggie and Lady Gaga

A few Chilis staff later came with my Brownies topped with Ice cream and candles while the surprise came later as Bong and Joshie spoiled me to a Suchan's Tiramisu cake, my fave...

Yummy!!!

Before long, it was the presents that I was anticipating all night... Dan bought me a lovely Jackson 5 CD that has the song I audition ed for Malaysian Idol with while Ant got me pendant with an Irish symbol in overcoming obstacles... lastly, Sam and the rest bought me a lovely CD, hidden in a book called "Beyond The Age of Innocence" and beneath the CD, were 4 brand new Durex condoms... I was told to be "safe"!

As we later adjourned to Nirvana for a chat, I had not had such lovely company for such a long time. Keen Yee later joined us and I was just pleased to share company with all these lovely guys... and what better was to spend time with them than on Valentine's day...

Love you guys!

To Make You Feel My Love

I was just listening to a song I had in my Itunes playlist... and there was this song that got me into my romantic mood again... A Billy Joel song and now sung by Grammy Best New Artist, Adele. I printed the chords and started to play it on my piano. I sang it and it dawned upon me how lovely this song was talking about the simple things done just that someone could feel my love. I wonder what people will do so that someone else felt their love...more importantly, who will do that, for me?

When the rain
Is blowing in your face
And the whole world
Is on your case
I could offer you
A warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows
And the stars appear
And there is no one there
To dry your tears
I could hold you
For a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you
Haven't made
Your mind up yet
But I would never
Do you wrong
I've known it
From the moment
That we met
No doubt in my mind
Where you belong

I'd go hungry
I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling
Down the avenue
No, there's nothing
That I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging
On the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
Though winds of change
Are throwing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing
Like me yet

I could make you happy
Make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends
Of the Earth for you
To make you feel my love

Hans Christian Anderson

When I was a child, I was drowned with storybooks galore... I have the a whole collection in which is now collecting dust in a shelf hidden in my storeroom. With my very bad habit (but I think its a good one) of having books to "accompany" my toilet time, I decided to bring one of those unfinished collections in for a flip. Out of the lot, I pick out Hans Christian Andersons collection of stories which included The Little Mermaid, Thumbelina, The Lil TinSoldier and a whole lot more...

As I read through those wonderful stories, I realised they still hold some truth in the lessons that we are still learning today. Take for example, The story of the Emporer's New Clothes. The naked truth is that we believe in what others think and no matter how foolish it was, we are blinded by the fact that we believe in even a myth than trusting our own instincts. Sad but true. We listen to what seemed to be the "acceptable view" and never even question it, worried about being the "odd one out". In this case, a child asked the most simplistic question and shamed the king and his men!

How about the story of the Fir Tree where he longed to be what he heard from the sparrow and worst, he wished that he was chopped down just so that he could "experience" what other "fir trees" have. At the end of the day it was nothing to shout about rather, it hurt him so much more... We longed to be all but ourselves and we are never grateful for who we are until we experience it but too late, we've crossed the line!

Oh and my personal favourite during puberty was "The Ugly Duckling"... I wonder if I have ever turned into swan (I hope, cross me fingers)but we all judge one another by the way someone looks don't we? We talk about their apperance not knowing whats within and they turn out to be the great and amazing people...

We have heard these stories a million times and they possess beautiful messages yet, today, these are the very lessons we fail to learn! Is it just us or is it our human nature, that we never are able to learn from our mistakes? Or is our dear author so divine that he could forsee that in us? The best part, such stories speak to me so much as a gay guy and to my suprise to find Hans Anderson a Bi!

Birthday!

Well, today happens to be my birthday... Well, only according to the Chinese calender anyway. I am born on the ninth day of chinese new year back in the days but my actual birthday is not until two weeks time. What happened was, I was wondering how should I celebrate my birthday this year. Should I go out with friends and have a good time? Or should I spend it alone?

Looking back on my previous years... I have had a birthday party when I turned 21 with just family and friends having some of the best beef in shabu-shabu style! Nothing special happened though... some didn't even turn up with presents... They all think its a party only! When I turned 20 I booked a room at Redbox and paid for my friends. Guess what, I forgot to buy my own cake... and I thought they would bring one for me... How silly... The thing is, I have attended many surprise birthday parties and well, surprisingly, no one wants to plan one for me... Does this prove I do not have enough friends or rather, ones who are close enough who wants to make the only day I have the right to be happy, be happy?

Ahh... but such were the thoughts of a young teenager... now, I have outgrown it (I am old di la!!!) and I no longer long for such surprise birthday parties and stuff. Its fun I know, but the time has come that my birthday should reflect something else than just birthday cakes, presents and such...

But this remains, what should I do for my birthday?

Sex and The City?

Well, since CNY can be a rather boring time with relatives updating each other on the events that occurred in their respective lives and extremely ingenuine concerns towards each other. I, on the hand, found it great that my Ipod Converter is able to convert DVDs into my Ipod and so I took this opportunity to get my entire collection of Sex and The City so I could finish it by the time CNY is over... (which "queer" who has a "straight" mind would do that right

I had always been a big fan of this series and I bought the entire series in China but never had the decent time to watch it... As I watched, I came upon an episode where Carrie asked the questiion, "How much sex is too much sex?" It suddenly dawned upon me. When I was 17, I had this conservative mind of not sleeping around and be monogamous and think that the world is made out of cotton candy and tied up by ribbons...

Then I realised... as I tried to count my many experiences, I suddenly realised that I would now require my toes to do the math! BOOM!!! Samantha Jones face smacked right in front of me. Oh no... I thought... Am I turning into her, I asked but is it normal anyway?

Is it normal to be sexually active? Is it okay to sleep around? and how much sex do you need before you are entitled to the title whore?

Yes... I know... Chinese New Year and I could only think about sex!!!

But it is an interesting question isn't it? Men are built for sex and if I am single, don't I have every right to enjoy my freedom? But what I discovered was that I would never look at sex as being one of those intimate moments you spend with a bf rather, a past time used to keep my "horniness" at bay! Besides, there is the whole health issue which kicks in where it would be a concern every time a condom breaks or something of that sort would occur (FYI, yours truly does not practice such unhealthy acts to the extent of not even doing it one hor!)

I love sex if you were to ask me and yes, I love being passionate in bed but will you call me a whore just because I slept with another guy for kicks??? I suppose for now, I could only blame my hormones which is raging like wild horses in my (sexy) body! But sex is fun and liberating... and yes... Abstinence, to me... solves no problem! And how about you? Yes the one reading this and now having his mind miles away into those few (or plentiful) experiences... Do you think I am a slut???